29AUG2009

今天早上，我做了一件我平時都不會做的事―――跑步。對我而言，跑步是件事毫無意義的事情，只是平時別人用來打發自己空閑的時間。但是，為什么我今天會忽然會去跑步呢？我不知道，或許是因為平時聽你講你有跑步的習慣吧

說實在的，我的生活確有被你影響了一點點。真確來說，我是想學習你的生活習慣。我記得你曾經問過我為什么我的話好像比之前少了，那時候，我給你的答案是不想講那么多，沒什么的。其實，我是想學習你，不要講那么多話，大部分的時間都保持沉默，只是以我的性格，能講少點話已經是很不錯了。

在這個sem的開始，我的gang的人都發覺到我每次叫的飲料一定會是kopi o（免甜），我不想喝那么多甜的東西，是因為你不能多喝有糖分的東西。可能你會覺得我很白癡，做一些很無聊的東西，只是我覺得我想融入的的世界，學習你的習慣，這樣我都很開心了。

至于跑步嘛，我不知道我可以堅持多久，也許就只是這一天，也或許跑步會成為我生活的一部分，我不知道。今天跑步的時候，我發現我跑的速度會比周圍的人來得快，而且我也不用怎么休息，應該是我有踢球的習慣吧。相比之下，我覺得跑步容易得多了。

離考試還有1個星期，我也不想打擾你了。你要我不要那么緊張你，我是很想做到，只是當你一喜歡的東西受到毀壞或者不見了，你都會緊張，更何況是人呢？人其實有自己的處事方法，你或許會不認同我的做法，但是我一樣做不到你覺得對的事，也許“固執”是我們之間唯一共同的性格吧。我能講的就只有對不起

23AUG2009

离考试只剩下13天，而懒散的我还没怎么认真去温习，也只是偶尔翻翻我的notes，是时候该读书了吧。

昨天，收到电话，seremban的coach叫我去他的队，成为他的队员，我拿不定主意。我想了一个晚上，我真的很矛盾，一方面我不想背叛，而另一方面我是想换一下环境。我并没有到seremban那里，因为想到一句：如果跳过去没有什么分别的话，为何要换呢？说实在的，我不知道究竟会不会有分别，不过我却觉得我这个决定是对的，至少我在这里和其他队员都培养出默契了，感觉上很像一家人，没有可能为了一些诱惑而离弃我的家人吧

这两天，我的心情都很不好，原因大概都不用我多讲了。我其实真的需要和我的家人道歉，就对他们发了我不该发的脾气，我的婆婆、二姑、三姑以及我的姐姐，真的很对不起，我真的控制不了我自己的情绪，或许是你们没有察觉到我的心情，一直在那里讲一些有完没完的东西，感觉很烦，才会对你们发这么大的脾气，对不起。

其实我也不知道为什么我会有如此大的醋意，就只是一封信，我就那么没有心情，好像傻佬似的，我真的很想压抑自己的情绪，只是现在的我真的做不到，或许会有这么的一天，不过一定不会是短时间之内。为了不让我的朋友担心，我不会再玩自闭。我说过，我要学习好好生活，至少在朋友面前我还是我，那个爱说笑的我，那个positive thinking的我。

其实我真的不该在这个时候想这些事情，现在这个时候是读书的时候，什么事情都好，都应该在考完试后再想嘛。林勇杰，振作一点吧

21AUG2009

昨晚，我原本和你聊得好好的，我却不知怎的提起那个你喜欢的他，然后又不知怎的搞得我自己很emo。说实在的，我当时真的很没有想到我的反应会那么激动，不得不承认，你在我心里已经占了比任何人、任何事都重要的位置。我也因为这件是耿耿于怀了一个晚上，我在床上不停的翻滚，希望可以入梦，却翻了一整个漫长的晚上。



因为今天要去云顶的关系，我爸就充当司机，把我们与家人载到各自的目的地，首先先放下我的妈妈，然后大姐，最后就我和二姐了。今天的lecture，我并不想上，因为你也没有去上课。我因为没有地方去的关系，只好到library去做温习，然而却没有心情想去读书，于是干脆叫jackson陪我去打机



到了cc后，我也很自然地，打开你的blog，看看你昨晚update的东西，不看还好，看了你那篇“第47天”，我的醋意也冒出来了，什么感动啦，什么心底话啦，什么在我身边啦，我心在杀那间都快碎了，原本心情不好的我，顿时显得更加不好。无可否认的，从你那篇blog，我可以感觉到你对他的心意，也了解他对你的感觉，你们之间的感情的确比我想象中还要好上几百倍。



过后，我回去library，我一直想：为什么我会那么在意呢？现在的你只是我的朋友，如果要形容得亲密一点，也只能够在朋友前面家一个“好”字。班上的同学都认定我们是一对，每次他们讲我们在一起的时候，我都会非常开心，很暗爽，只是我很清楚了解我们之间的关系，虽然我们最近很close,你对我却没有所谓的爱情，因为你心里还是存有另一个人。



其实，我真的是一个很看不开的人，尤其是对你，每次看到你被冷落的时候，我都会想去安慰你；看到你受委屈的时候，想去照顾你；听你一个人吃饭的时候，我想去陪你；看你哭的时候，我想抱着你，把我的肩膀借给你，陪你一起面对你所有不开心、不如意的事，只是这些都不会是你想要的，我知道在我身上永远都找不到你想要的，因为我不是那个他。

我想：我是时候该认真的去学习了，学习不要那么关心你，学习放下对你的感觉，学习放下对你的思念，学习没有你的日子，我也能过得很好。

很明显的，这些都不是我的心底话，，可是我会强迫我自己去学习以上的一切，因为我知道无论我再怎样努力、再怎样上进都好，都不会是你喜欢的那个。

愿那个你喜欢的他，和他喜欢的你，会在两年后的重逢中有一个美好的结局

突然很想你

凌晨1.30

不知道为什么
突然间很想你
想知道你在做什么
想知道你的心情

或许
是因为你最近显得很不开心
又或许
是我纯粹地想念你

我知道你并不想想那么多东西
也并不想一直掉泪
更不想一直让人担心着你

其实
我真的很不喜欢你想那么多
不想看你悲哀
更不想看你掉泪

每次看到你这样
我都会很心疼
很心痛
很不开心

我很想和你分享你所有的事
开心的
伤心的
我都想与你一起分担

现在那么晚了
我也不想打扰你
早点休息
晚安

15AUG2009 --The Proposal

I went for movie wit yenmei 2day, I enjoy myslef a lot. Well, i suppose to said that i enjoy every single moment wit her.

We went to midvalley after our MIS lecture. Reach there about 10.15, she told me that she is kinda fimilliar wit MIDVALLEY because she used to go there last time, but the problem is she guide me the wrong direction to the cinema, quite silly right?

We bought ticket of THE PROPOSAL at 1.30pm. As the time is still early, we went to CHILLIS to have our lunch, actually i just wanna to try something fresh. The environment is actually quite good, and the taste not bad as well.

After our meal, we went for some window shopping, actually I am trying to ask her to change her image, i have no any purpose actually, juz wan to see how would she looks like wit differnet kind of attire, but she refused.

Until 1.30 pm, we went to the cinema for our movie. This movie is actually very funny and romantic. The story line is actually talk about a Cananda woman who force her staff to marry her so that she could stay at USA to continue her courier. The staff is actually very hate her, always curse her and talks everything about bad on her boss, but because of his job, he has no choice, he had to marry her boss. And the story end up with the staff began to fall in love on the woman after they started to live together for just 3 days.

Is actually quite touching, i mean the way he treat her. Well, this movie should be recommend to everyone, no matter is single or wit couple, this is really a meaningful movie. Guys, watch it!! U wil never regret!!

I am very happy 2day, because once again she willing to go out with me, is actually the 2nd time she went out wit me for movie indivdually. Haha, hope this wil never end!!

10 AUG 2009 ---PRESENTATION

Well, my group is having presentation 2day. And due to this reason, Justin, Jia Jun and me were wearing formal attire to college. Is actually smart looking when we arrived to the college, but our tutor---TIONG SOOK ask us to comb our hair like an professional, quite emberrasing!! Cz everyone of us not used to this kind of hairstyle...here is the picture of our look after comb our hair with comb and gel!!! 'NICE' right?

Actually Jackson, Justin and JJ's is not bad, but i am kinda wired and look like 'AH PEK'!!! Do u all feel it too? As we are the forth group to present, we have plenty of time to prepare b4 our presentation. I though i had a well prepared b4 i present, but GOSH!! I present like shit!! I wonder why am i so nervous and stuck for so long!! I think my presentation result will be definitely bad!! Whatever, i have no idea on it now!! I have to concentrate on my taxation coursework and FA as well. Hopefully these last 2 subject wont be so bad as this presentation!!

Have to go!! Better study b4 the end of the world!!

08AUG2009

I've been busy for this few weeks, and i have no time to update this fucking blog. Well, our assignment for this sem considered to be done, left 2 or 3 coursework which quite tought, but is actually better than those fucking assignemnt which make us feel damn exhausted!!DAMN IT!! I heard a lecturer said that the next sem will be much tought than this sem...OMG!!This sem is nearly take my life, i really can't imagine how will be going on by next sem!!FUCK IT!!

For this week, we had sumbitted 3 assignment, which is english long report, Business law and management accounting foundamental as well. I am in charge of Business law, Justin in charge of ENGLISH long report and joanne in charge of MAF!! First of all, i would like to apologise for storming with my group member, but seriously i doest mean anything. Justin, thx for everything that u did for the group,i am glad to be same group with u. Jonne, i am sry for the way i talk with u, because that time my mood seem to be distracted, i shouldn't blame u!!SRY for everything!!

AND now, we have to study for next week coursework, which is TAXATION and FA!!GOOD LUCKS and ALL THE BEST!!